Tuesday, January 12, 2016

versus: 2016: factual

sometimes i think the years are at war with one another.

this will be my year i think as i barrel into 2016.
but really, last year was my year too.
it was a stormy year, yes.
if i were a ship, my hull would have holes, 
and my mast would be missing
and there would be tears and 
repairs needed everywhere.

but it was still a year. 
and one that i learned a lot in.
one that i had favorites in.
and if i did compare them.
if the two did go to war.
i would see that both had merits
and the war would end up being a duel
and the duel would end up being a miss on both ends.
neither would die.
because both were equally valuable.

of the year. what happened?
how did i get to this place
with these things
in this time
with these people

how did i become who i am right now
and what person does that steer me towards becoming.

Wake Me Up - Avicci

"What a treacherous thing to believe that a person is more than a person."
"The town was paper, but the memories were not."
- Paper Towns, John Green

"One of the drawbacks about adventures is that when you come to the most beautiful places
you are often too anxious and hurried to appreciate them."
- The Horse and His Boy, C.S. Lewis

lessons learned:
people are meant to be loved, experiences learned from, and issues dealt with. but those don't define me. none of those make me who i am. that essence of myself is bottled up inside me.
i am my own source.
you will never regret being kind.
the world is sometimes a mirror. and sometimes you are a mirror. and you have to figure out which one is which, and which one is right.

important dates:
September 27, 2015: I got baptized! (The river was cold. AH.)
August 14, 2015: Baby Niece Eliza Marie is born!!
aaand sometime in December I applied for a midwifery school. still waiting to hear whether i've been accepted...but i'm super excited!

train trip (i love to travel. period, end of story.)

down lows: 
bad things happen in life. Basically the last half of 2015 sucked. The worst part is that even though we're pulling through, things are never the same as they once were. and, i mean, life is about change. and i get that. but sometimes i just want things to be like when i was 6 years old and my biggest worry is if i'd picked up enough books at the library. that'd be good.

new things: 
possibly going to midwifery school
we got kittens
i am making a goal to fully absorb and apply lessons i learn. even the little stuff.
(first one of 2016 is "The first words out of my mouth should be lovely ones.")

continuing things:
i feel like 2015 and 2016 are sort of mashed together (which is really bugging me because i like my years to be separate.) so i guess you could say that this "section" of my life is continuing.
piano. (duh.) writing/blogging. (also duh.) exercise. (did i ever even start?) love for travel. (i plan to do A LOT more of that this year.)

immersion: noun; deep mental involvement; 
baptism by immersing a person bodily (but not necessarily completely) in water.   
Origin: late 15th century: from late Latin immersio(n-), from immergere ‘dip into’. 

things i'll never do again:
a Hamilton Playhouse Production (not because i don't love them, because i do. but #stress #ilikemylipswithoutcoldsores #justno #sorry). I love theatre. i just don't love being almost solely responsible for the background music.
train travel. because as much as i love travel, by train is just not the best. there's a post about that.

"So we are always of good courage. We know that while we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord, for we walk by faith, not by sight. Yes, we are of good courage, and we would rather be away from the body and at home with the Lord. So whether we are at home or away, we make it our aim to please him." 2 Corinthians 5:6-9

So YAY for 2016. may it be filled with lessons, and quotes, and good moments. may it shine, may it be worth it. may we learn much and be full and fill others. may 2016 be good. may 2016 be a year of peace, not war. may we be peace-lovers, smoothing over the rocky spots in our paths, helping others over the obstacles of life. may we be nice. may we be lovely. may we be. 


  1. whoa, ok, first, THE BLOG DESIGN. O_O I love it!!! I hope that this year is *your* year, Sami. God speaks so much through your talent of writing. I'll be praying for you and your family as you pull through whatever you are pulling through. What comes to my mind is actually a lyric from a Shawn Mendes song "a little too much" "But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up // And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same" I think that song would speak to you much like it spoke to me, too. 2015 was a rough year in a lot of ways for me too. But stay strong, girl, because you are amazing! And new things are ahead!! *hugs*

    p.s. I loooove wake me up by avicci!!

  2. dawww...thanks Kate! blog design credit goes to Jana at http://janasfaith.blogspot.com/ .....this is so encouraging! and you know, shawn mendes.... #ofcourse. i love his music, but i don't think i've ever heard that song! :) you're so sweet! i hope 2016 goes well for you, too! *hugs*